I get so surprised with myself when I feel bored! Especially because the time when I feel bored is exactly the time when Life starts turning around......So , in a way I'm confused about my feelings. Am I bored? Or am I anxious of what lies ahead?
There are loads of films I haven't watched,
loads of books I bought and haven't read yet,
magazines that I haven't gone through,
a dozen exam papers I have to write still,
a dozen calls I've to make etc etc etc....
But I don't do any of it!
Because for a while I want to feel empty!
I want to empty my mind of all the thoughts and all the worries and stop thinking for just a moment.....
1 moment....
and that would be the greatest moment of all!
I think that's what the aim of meditation is...to learn to empty your mind for just a second.....
So there it goes, I simply refuse to do all of the above activities for 5 days! I don't find it interesting, nor energising....they are just activities to do on day to day basis. I want to add something more to my every day.....I guess that something more is called "Peace of Mind".
I'm off to the Ashram now...where else can I learn to find peace of mind?
I want to take a break from the Internet, the TV, the chatting, the career and the ambitions....all starts looking useless at a point of time.
Hope the Ashram works its magic once more ....that's the dose I need to keep me going for the rest of the year.
You should try it too.
And yes, go alone. You suddenly realise how dependant you are on people.
Love
J
