Ghusmatmaar!!

In Konkani this means "frustration" ! And that's how I feel right now! As if my own personal problems and issues are easy enough for me to solve, that a new one always faces me around the corner!

If I want , I can very well look over some of the issues that bother me so much! The issues that bother me are the issues that face everybody here, I wonder how everyone can be so calm and peaceful as if nothing has happened!

Lets take the past 3 days, 3 little pups are caught up in an old unused house, their mother has abandoned them and they scream on top of their voices for help! As every day passes by I hear the energy fading, and today I just heard some small cries- their last attempt to call for help!

Its very difficult for anybody to climb their fence and go in, besides there's too much vegetation, you can hardly see anything there- the house looks like its haunted!

Is it just me hearing their screams?
I called all the Animal rescue Organisations I know, nobody came for help!
Then I called the Fire department who conviniently said this doesnt come under their kind of work- they gave me some more animal rescue numbers, I called evrybody- half of their phones are out of order, others are not picked up and those who do pick up , say, we dont have staff or Margao is not under our jurisdiction or we are out of funds or we have no vehicle!

I've been praying now that those pups die, sooner the better!How much more should those little ones suffer? And if they are rescued, where would they go? Who would take care of them? I've rescued too many dogs already and have no takers left anymore- besides my house and my mum's house is full of pets!

I just wished I didnt love animals so much that it would hurt me like this! I wished I was deaf and dumb like the rest of the lot and my heart didnt ache everytime I heard an animal scream for help!

I scream, U scream V both scream 4 d same Thing

I love Roshogullas! My mother’s explanation to that is when she was pregnant with me, she was gifted a matka full of roshogullas by my uncle! It was always her favorite sweet and so it is mine…. And so it is Bubu’s! Bubu is not my daughter, she’s my dog! And the strangest part of her is that she likes everything that I like to eat!

Sweets are bad for dogs and one should never feed sweets to a dog, but bubu starts to cry if she gets the smell and is not given at least 1 roshogulla, she can even gulp down the sugar syrup within seconds if I let her!

Ice creams everybody loves…..but I don’t understand why she likes the same flavour as me. I prefer the vanilla flavor and so does she. No kidding, she won’t finish off a strawberry or a butterscotch, chocolate she’s ok with- so am I!

The only difference between us is that she’s a fishetarian and I am not.

If I am eating a mango, I simply pass her the peel and she happily devours it!
She loves chickoo too, it also happens to be my favourite fruit!

Bubu means the world to me! She’s a daughter, a friend, and a loyal faithful companion!

I don’t know what I would do without her!

Here’s a prayer of a dog written by Beth Norman Harris, Kindly go through it, it’s what I see in Bubu’s eyes!

A Dog’s Prayer

Treat me kindly, my beloved master, for no heart in all the world is more grateful for kindness than the loving heart of me.

Do not break my spirit with a stick, for though I should lick your hand between the blows, your patience and understanding will more quickly teach me the things you would have me do.

Speak to me often, for your voice is the world’s sweetest music, as you must know by the fierce wagging of my tail when your footsteps falls upon my waiting ear.

When it is cold and wet, please take me inside, for I am now a domesticated animal, no longer used to bitter elements. And I ask no greater glory than the privilege of sitting at your feet beside the hearth. Though had you no home, I would rather follow you through ice and snow than rest upon the softest pillow in the warmest home in all the land, for you are my god and I am your devoted worshiper.

Keep my pan filled with fresh water, for although I should not reproach you were it dry, I cannot tell you when I suffer thirst. Feed me clean food, that I may stay well, to romp and play and do your bidding, to walk by your side, and stand ready, willing and able to protect you with my life should your life be in danger.

And, beloved master, should the great Master see fit to deprive me of my health or sight, do not turn me away from you. Rather hold me gently in your arms as skilled hands grant me the merciful boon of eternal rest - and I will leave you knowing with the last breath I drew, my fate was ever safest in your hands.

We all are blind, we all are deaf

I was attending a yoga camp next to my house. Constantly I could hear the cry of a pup. It was disturbing me so much, I couldn’t concentrate in any of the asanas. Some old ladies shouted at me for turning to look hear and there. I told them about the cry, they said, “are you hearing it for the 1st time or what? There are a 100 dogs out there!”

I got up that instant and got out of the class.

I saw a pup- around a month old, at the road side, perhaps hit by a car. He was lying down, unable to move, ants eating his ears and nose.

Call me an emotional fool, but I’ve never seen anything dying a slow death before. And this was just a month old pup! I just burst into tears! I ran to him, my mere touch sent a wave of pain in his body. I went home and got a plank of wood and put him on it, so that there will be minimum movement and pain for him.


I rushed him to the veterinary hospital, the doctor was not there ( as always). The assistant gave the pup some injection and said he would be just fine. I was carrying the pup home in my car, when he started to shudder, shiver and within 15 minutes, he was dead!

I wanted to go back and question the assistant, but I was just tired! How blind and deaf has our society become?

I’ve tried to save a few dogs and cats as and when I saw them in trouble. A neighbor, was throwing new born kittens ( eyes not even opened) in the dustbin next to our house. I picked them up and gave them back to the owner, asked him to keep them till their eyes open and then I promised I’ll take away the kittens! The same neighbor came around asking for a male cat a few days back- said there were too many rats in his house.

I see people hitting , kicking animals the whole time. Many times I tried to stop- occasionally even falling in trouble!

I’ve seen cases when a big rich family kept a big breed of dog in a cage, and left him there without giving him anything to eat for days- to his slow death!

We are no doubt the most selfish species on this planet!
And no matter how many times I’ve tried to tell and convince people to have a heart towards the animals, they only laugh at me and tell me some nonsense!

I urge everyone to do just 1 thing- when you have kids, please give them the right values so that they turn into responsible citizens with fully functional eyes, ears and brain!